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| venting stage #1 -
keep your mouth shut. learn to keep a secret & above all, know when you should tell someone something, verses keeping it to yourself. pretty sure that's key sometimes, and its a lesson i know I've learned.
not making honors for graduation really sucked. and in fact i DID make them. bitches. to graduate with honors you had to have a 3.0 or higher depending on high honors and honor students. When i received my grades, i had above a 3.0 accumulative gpa . so that whole battle started; emailing the school board & guidance people, and superintendent. "its only through 3rd quarter." well, ya know what? if 4th quarter is important to graduate, meaning some people need those credits to pass, then why is it not so important for honors? and no where in the program, nor do they tell us it is in fact through 3rd quarter. that was a long and dumb process. and hopefully they are changing it for next year. but the damage has already been done, being told you didnt graduate with honors, and not recieving cords & regognition when in FACT you DID graduate with honors, is a load of shit. im glad im done with those people who we call our principal, and the guidance people who i thought were awesome nice people. And as for the superindendent, its pretty low when ya dont get an email, or phone call back from him. what a jerk. ya know, cords are the same each and every year; would u think it would be that difficult to have a box of them, and handing them out at the practice for the cermony?! dumbasses. those people went through more schooling than i have had, and yet they cant seem to figure that one out. Ugh.
today im in the kind of mood that im ready to move on, im ready to move out of this house & have some freedom, tomorrow may be a day that i saw i dont wanna go; and i will miss my family and friends and community. partially true. today; i want freedom ;)
relationships these days are crazy. opposites really do attract. walking around the fair, you see these couples that are NOT at all the same, or from what u see in a school setting, weird huh? i just notice those things... and it's weird all the relationships you see out there, some people you would think shouldnt be together. ah well. if its not meant to be; it won't last long. christian wilcox and brook barrett ? odd. and i wont list em all- thats just for starters.
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| might as well let out some things while i'm on here...
this isnt necessarily directed towards you, dont freak out. funny that when ever someone writes something on here, the other people that have xanga think its them. automatically. hahhaahha. true huh? anyways, just read on.
im sick of the people who constantly make fun of my job. "well, if you had a real job." "well, ya make like $4.00 an hour." ya know what? chances are if you are my age; i had my job before you. honestly. & maybe ive been working longer than you have, and i now have 2 jobs. lay off. its annoying & sometimes its not so funny. ya know i can make fun of my own job, i do get paid pretty crappy. but its a first job. im busy with other stuff i'd rather be doing. ill work when i can, and now i work like 37 hours a week, and am making good money. ugh. enough on that subject.
i've been having a kinda tough time lately.
When I had to say goodbye to dominique, i really felt a pain in my heart. like a chunk was gunna be missing. and i was close to her. when i said goodbye at her party she started to cry & then the day she left i went to neuzils house to help her pack and say goodbye, and then we both cried when we left. i dont understand the ppl who say they are going to miss them, when they hardly knew them. but ah well. thats okay. thats like me saying i would miss edik- i talked to him twice. really? anywaysss.. she called me the morning of her depature from the US, and said goodbye- Cutest voicemail ever. and i talked to her on facebook tonight. so that was good! and her mom said she wanted to meet me.. said i looked like a good friend from all the pictures on facebook & from what domy has told her about me. eeek! that would be BOM to go to chile. :)
Another person i had to say goodbye to was kelli. we werent always that close, but we talked alot in school & stuff, just didnt hang out too much outside of school. but towards the summer, we did.. and these past 2 weeks we hung out alot. and then she left to college, to get a job up there in ND before all the students go up there. im gunna miss her too, but i plan on taking a roadtrip up there sometime!
Andd randy olson. what the hell has that kid gotten himself into? dont mean to make this public- but im not going into details. ya know, i knew randy since we were in grade school, and were really close. not many of his friends today can say that. honestly, we were close. he was in love with niki g, and so was jayme. and i liked jayme. and aly k & randy always had a thing. wow. those were the good ole days. honestly- he has gone crazy, and cant be trusted. i cant believe this once innocent kid turned this way. but ya know; when he started smoking pot, no one else cared as much as i did that he shouldnt be. still to this day, i dont agree with it. will i stop being ur friend because of it? no, but will i do it? no. i've seen what its done to people, randy- a prime example and i wont do it. hate to say i told ya so, but i told ya it was bad news from the start. and i realize its not just pot at this point, but still- thats how he got this way. ugh. & its not because im "not living", its cuz i chose not to, its not "cool" to do, which some people chose to try it because of that reason, wow thats lame. & ive chosen to let go of this friendship i once had. im choosing not to care, even tho that sounds mean. he isnt worth helping at this point. because he doesnt want help, and doesnt want to stop. so whatever. im done with this kid.
My poohkie. we found out he has a tumor. and personally i plan on ignoring the fact that there is anything wrong with him. simply cause i cant stand the fact that he's not doing so well. he is blind in one eye now. and hes what holds me together on those days that i wanna yank out my hair. what will i do without him? anyone that knows me, knows that he is my world. hes ADORABLE! :D ya know, when i was younger and i would be crying for some reason, upset or whatever; he would come to where i was, and jump up on me, and lick the tears that would be running down my chin at this point. whats not to love? and i cant remember life without me, nor do i want to imagine life without my little brother of 11 years.
let me live my life. i will be gone in like a month, ya really want to try & push me out sooner? i think not. i can be out til 2AM if i chose to. which hasnt been happening due to the fact of working at 9:30AM would suck to wake up to. but if i wanna sleep over, let me. its not gunna kill ya to have ur kid be gone til morning. guess what? i wont have a curfew next year. and as soon as i get my apt. key- im gunna use that as an excuse, haha "fine, ill just go to my apartment then." swwweeeet. cant wait. :]
i miss winona. last year i went to winona alot, and i miss mr. chris that lives there. ah :) hes perfect & i really want to visit him. and he lives in the cities, saweet- possibly gunna have to meet up there with him, and hang out at my apartment! yayy.
im up to my knees in laundry, should probably do some of that soon! just been too dang busy i guess!
Darins cabin was a really good time. time to relax, hang with with the boys, and have a few drinks haha.
mi apartamento- 12 days til i can get the keys!!! :D
i think i may take a road trip this summer. ya know just kick back, and drive & spent some money & time with some pretty sweet people, and have a good time! go to a place with a beach, or pool - enjoy our self, and fuckin just hang out! lol sounds like a good time to me.
i could rant on and on, but i think i should stop. ill maybe update again this week, i just needed to get some stuff out. feel free to comment.
&& is feeling much better.
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| Hey!
its been a while since i've updated, so im going to update now.
I have had a lot on my mind recently and it may feel good to get things out!
i am leaving kasson next year, which brings mixed emotions, im glad that i will get out there on my own and have a fresh start, new town, no parents, a ways away- im VERY excited about that, im also nervous to be on my own but i think i will manage. I will only be an hour away, so if i want... i can come to visit! and go to football games and be there for my favorite juniors. ;) it doesnt seem like we are gunna be done yet, i still feel like this isnt it,.. theres more to it and it shouldnt be the end just yet- even tho im ready for it to be. my grad party is this saturday and im excited about that for sure!
I get very attached to things and people. may seem random but i was just looking through old photos and saw the little honduras girls and how much i missed those twins, even if they had lice! haha ick. and how my much im gunna miss my pooh bear next year, im not sure how hes gunna take it. i feel very bad for leaving him, ecpecially since hes getting older and im not sure how much more he will have with me, i used to tell my parents he'd live forever.. simply because i could not handle life without him, and to this day im in denial that anything could go wrong. stupid me? when you've been with something/someone for 11 years, cant remember life without it, and love him like i do... obviously ya cant imagine life without it. anyways.... it will be hard for me to say goodbye. and i may fall apart. but until that day comes i know ill be good. and remembering dea, tilda, and saying goodbye to Domy will be hard as well. i clearly remember the times i had with dea and tilda, tilda thinkin my dogs name was poop.. and dea staying over at my house asking questions beyond belief. I will defiantly miss dominique, shes a great friend and i wish we could just keep them here! haha she's so funny and outgoing. maybe some day i can visit?!!
prom = amazing
coffeehouse =great, minus cranky ass clark
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| 15 randoms
- 35 thousand pictures on my computer & will be more someday. yes i know, thats a shit ton.
- I often had makeup smeared under my eyes.
- When I get stressed, you'll know.
- Hopes to get atleast one scholarships I signed up for.
- Turned down a trip to Florida to be with my class
-Techno is my new high
- Thinks it'd be cool to be on the royalty court :]
- Loves old photos <3
- Has gotten lazy with the leg shaving.
- Most of the time I go above and beyond what is asked.. if doing so lets me be creative.
- Is excited to get a place of her own
- Isn't afraid to be herself anymore.
- Loves being involved & doing many things
- Will be ready to leave the theatre finally ;)
- Is sick of doing other peopls work for them.
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| 3 1/2 months left at km- and will for damn sure make the best of it.
its insane to say that all these things ive been waiting for are all gunna go baa'm..
spring fling, prom, graduation, class trip, coffee house, fccla state, and manyyy more things 
ahhhhh!
not quite sure im ready to leave everyone, i really like school right now,
i dont have enemies, and dont hate anyone at this point; really.
old times, are old times- whatever.
famous in a small town- (my version  )
around here you get just as much attention
cheerin' at the high school football game.
I made the front page of the Dodge County Independent (DCI)
Noah and Hannah broke up
It ended pretty quietly.....
Baby who needs their faces in a magazine?
We've been stars of the town since we were 17..
Let's go on down to the Kwik Trip
Wear your pink shades
And I'll put on my blue jeans
Everybody dies famous in a small town
wow 3 1/2 months-ish.
loveeeeyouuu.
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